January 7, 2021
Been feeling pretty down since the start of the year. Nothing is any more or less challenging than last year, no new obstacles per se, just more of the same, and a general feeling of melancholy. I am in two support groups that meet monthly, I zoom with my therapist weekly, take an antidepressant daily, practice yoga 4-5 times a week, pray often, journal and go to church every week and yet this despondency. I am functioning, smiling, laughing even sometimes and trying to find the joy within the sadness, using humor to ward off the pain, but I think the reality is, I feel our paths, Rob and mine, parting and he is going where I cannot follow and I don’t even know what Lesley without Rob looks like. #alzheimerssucks #alzoc