OH MY GOODNESS I had magnified the impact of my leaving for 36 hours to epic proportions. I imagined 911 scenarios where I was trying to get on a plane home to my frantic, heartbroken love who was strapped to a gurney pumped full of drugs. This would then spiral down to catatonia followed by …
OH MY GOODNESS I had magnified the impact of my leaving for 36 hours to epic proportions. I imagined 911 scenarios where I was trying to get on a plane home to my frantic, heartbroken love who was strapped to a gurney pumped full of drugs. This would then spiral down to catatonia followed by …
What a day and night! I forgot who this Lesley was. Connecting with old friends, vendors, music, laughter and much frivolity ending with a yoga pose I like to call “I put my key card in my boot cause I didn’t have a pocket and I couldn’t retrieve it to open the door” (yes it …
This is the face of freedom for the next 36 hours. Hi ho hi ho it’s off to Vegas I go! #bensincharge#tradeshow#prayersplease
Communication is such a challenge; he is having a really tough time finding the words or even keeping track of his thoughts. He is sad about the dogs; thinking he must leave them, but cannot put a name to the feeling, reason with it or do anything about it. He cannot even identify the emotion …
January 9, 2021 Simon Says: have you ever played that game where you stand in front of your friends and they must mimic whatever you do as long as it’s preceded by the words “Simon says.” Today we are playing our version, “Lesley does.” In this game you must be well within Lesley’s personal space …
When we immigrated from South Africa in 1991, we left behind our two German Shepherds and our Maltese poodle. The big dogs went to a co worker who had a large property and we drove 14+ hours to Cape Town to give the little guy to my aunt. Prior to Alzheimer’s, the day we left …
January 7, 2021 Been feeling pretty down since the start of the year. Nothing is any more or less challenging than last year, no new obstacles per se, just more of the same, and a general feeling of melancholy. I am in two support groups that meet monthly, I zoom with my therapist weekly, take …
This is the wall behind Rob’s desk. He keeps adding to the collage, some things befitting the desktop real estate and others seemingly random. The Ferrari flag and last year’s family photo card for example are amongst potential vacation spots. Then there are ads randomly snipped from magazines or junk mail like the offer of …
Tough day today; up since 4am and he was super agitated. Meds were not working and so I took him to the beach for a walk. He was so angry and finally told me “no one wants me at that place” (home) It’s kinda like a 2 year old screaming that they hate you. And …