Suspicion and rigidity are the highlights today. I am still persona non grata; I have come to realize that my feminine wiles were a huge part of managing R. Without them I have tried using my sparkling personality, but he doesn’t think I’m all that, so now I’m playing relaxing meditation music and have essential oils on his wrists and in the atomizer. He is calm, and please God, down for the night, and I remain with my shoulders up near my ears and my stomach in a knot wondering what the morrow will bring.